Behind Fleurs

I thought I start off how dormant this blog has been with a good ol' update post. Cause there's nothing like going back in the blogger grind than just telling y'all what's been up since the last one. It's been a year since that post so ya girl has went through a whole LOT. I am now finally in my first year of degree, I got into the high committee for my DJ Club, I've been more creative with editing photos (check it out on the gram @twistlist ) and moved to a better apartment where I can finally COOK along with dope housemates. Through all the stress and never ending work I got from school, life honestly has been really good to me and I'm just grateful to be where I am. Won't lie though; I had my dips this past year with adulting, getting things together and balancing it all. Self deprecation is a habit I am trying to curb and not do as often since its sort of my coping mechanism to stress. We are not about that this year, not anymore. I'...

Many thanks to Joshua for doing this without me appealing to pity. Jokes aside, there will be another post this month coming soon so I highly recommend to stay tune Feature: Adidas Jacket - Thrifted Gold Rimmed Specs - Museum Souvenir

I told him I wanted a kiss He asked if I was just thirsty that maybe it wasn't necessarily him I would be fine getting it from anyone really I looked to him "Don't." Because as much as I want to say "I love you" I wasn't much into making love scenes They didn't really match at least that's what most people see them as One seem like he could do better the other just a potential homewrecker and yeah they were wrong about them mostly, but they had an expiration date that neither haven't noticed I could tell she was growing distant, the last second turn when I lean in, the pause she replies from time to time, Time I hadn't realize was apparently running out for us I see her and thought "I love.." She sees me and just sighs It's been a week since they last  saw each other, eyes locked on  across a crowded room at some party The host they could vaguely recall the music and the ruckus fading He walk o...

You would never stay in one place You seem to always have a purpose A destination to be at The disappearing act is your signature exit Others may say because of your name  and what you do You would sneak out with my heart Breeze past me before I even realize it was gone   But they didn't know that I would have taken bullets for you When you came home with signs of Life's tears, I could mend them back People usually come to me only when they need me to put things together but babe for you, I wouldn't mind anytime If you would allow me a hollow space, I would fit into it with no problems and make it feel like home there so you can always have home   Because they didn't know that while you came back worn and stained, while you show them off like medals for overcoming the obstacles, you never did it for the destination you did it for the journey.   And journeys can get lonely Journeys can cause friction to the sole But I got that cool touc...

If a boy can cry wolf, could he not cry rape? Do you give fake hopes as high as the heels she wears for you? Could you not be there for when your parents fall because of their ailing bodies just as they were there for you when yours fail? "Are you sure he err...assaulted you? (You're a man for chrissake)" "Well he did sound like he goes around , I mean you should have known better.(Get over it geez)" "Oh you know them these days. All about their career and their wives and their nose-picking children. (He'll visit I'm sure, you're worrying too much)." I can't bring myself near that alleyway anymore. I can still hear his voice whenever I do. No, I wasn't just assaulted. Why why WHY can't you see that I am  fighting back? Known better ? How? In his smile when he looks at me? When he murmurs to me that I am his "one and only"? Was it when we exchanged promises one night? Tell me how could  have I known?...

I've just finished trial exams and so here's me blog rejuvenating over the emotional tense I've been feeling for awhile by giving you guys a quick know how of my life so far. I can tell you there has been considerable selfies in my phone from my carpool gang which includes Cristy there. We go by names like "Dash Express" because the driver's name is really Dash and we have our reality show called "Keeping up with the Dash" in our snapchat and its basically just three girls who means the world to Dash ahaha. By the way, he treats us to pizza too. I helped out with my school Grad Night and even achieved arriving with my girls in individual jumpsuits. Coordination on point. I got to continue most of my jogging sessions with my other gal pals too. Went on a brief but a much needed vacay at Kudat. The beaches and salty breeze is definitely the perfect unwind for me any time. Palm trees were especially a thing for me as they now remind me of my short ...